This past week found Nick Cannon facing backlash for anti-Semitic comments made on a podcast, comments that would ultimately lead to ViacomCBS releasing him from ‘Wild’n Out.’ Since then, Cannon noted he’s met with others to gain an understanding on his comments, but also said he faced backlash for apologizing. Now, Cannon has taken to Instagram to address the death of friend and artist Ryan Bowers.

Via Instagram, Cannon also revealed that he was dealing with the possibility of ending his life. The mogul said, “Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse... 2020 is definitely the most f**ked up year I’ve ever witnessed! After waking up & barely rising from my own dark contemplation of continuing my physical existence on this planet, this powerful warrior actually had the balls to do it. I’ve said it once, and I will say it again, this was the strongest dude I’ve ever met!”

Cannon talked about the trials and tribulations Bowers faced after the artist was unjustifiably shot by San Diego Police that rushed in his home. The incident put Bowers in a coma for months. Cannon also spoke on being there for Bowers through that journey, saying, “…everyone will just look at this as yet another loving farewell post, but to me, @ryanbowersob was so much more than that. Once again my brother you have put this world in perspective for me. You would do that quite often because I never understood how someone who was experiencing sooo much pain could still laugh and smile through it all.” Condolences to the family of Ryan Bowers.